Angelicum

how to treasure a certain thing that was given to you.. well, very easy.. its like learning abc when you are a kid, and learning do re mi in d music subject.. treasuring a friend is like you won in a million dollar game.. cause these are the people that will help u in the future… based on my experience some friends might go some friends may stay… let say you have a million friends to be counted but there are three, or four people who will never leave you through thick or thin.. these are the people we need to teasure..cause these are gifts that was given to you by GOD.

well for some.. i think they dont know how to treasure simple things that was given to them. i know a person who actually did that. well, he is my ex lover..hahaha..ex lover..or ex-bf-user.. that wud be the perfect term. i did love him.. yes..im true with that. however..being with him made my world turns around. i dumped my bf with him, i made a gap between me and my mom… i just loved him.but he loves more his “stiff - im- a hello kitty -look - a- like”. hahaha..reminiscing the past..but its fine with me… there are things we need to let go if you knew that there is something wrong between the relationship.

but wat it hurts me and wat it kills me is to know that the gifts that u have given to him was being sold to other people.. the guitar…the GUITAR..yes the GUITAR.. the guitar that all my friends are being envied of.. it really hurts me.. i worked hard just to give him that fucking guitar.. even the amplifier, and the effects..i worked so hard just to give those fucking equipment.. haist.. it just tells me that he never loved me at all.. he just used me.. just for the sake to make payabang to other people.. i never tot i cud encounter those type of people.. haist.. bagay nga cla ng gf nia.. but even though it happens, i found out that there are people who still care for me..

maybe.. wel,, i should do it.. i have to erase his memory to my life.. i have to move on.. as wat kenneth said, life must go on. cause its not just me who experience that type of treatment…

its been 4 or 5 years since we had this so called- relationship.. we are so young then…:)

his name is raymond.. raymond garcia..  he is my crush’s cousin.. he is attending the school infront of our school.. if i am going to describe him.. he is a type of guy na batang-bata ang dating.. i cud stil remember his get up way back high skul.. he is wearing a white polo matched with a blue pants and his bag?? well, its a violet khumbella back pack..wahahah..

db.. remember ko pa..hehe.. i like him very much.. i used to wait for him in our school’s guard house.. hahaha..grabe.. actually there are two persons that i like way back then… its mark harold zablan and him. but i preferred most is raymond.. hmm.. why?? why him?? cause i dont know.. i dont know the answer even now.. only i know, that i love him and i love him till now..wahaha..

hmm.. when i am on my fourth year, he transfer to other school..huhuh.. ouch! well, wala pa kaming relasyon nun… he is my greatest crush then..

haist.. to cut the long story short, we had back our communication when we are on our third year in college.. yes!! as in! and that time hindi ko na tlaga pinatagal.. i saidyes to him.. pero i know ts my fault why our relation just lasted for 5 mos.. but eventhough we broke up and had our life back in being single, we dont have any problem.. we ended up being frends… hahahha..

and now..back in the game again.. hahaha.. back in our arms again.. hehehe.. after 5 years..hahaha.. love him so much!! back in OUR HONEY’S HEART!!!

its been 13 years since mah dad passed away.. i was eleven then.. at first, wala sakin ung panahon na kinuha cia ni GOD.. coz i still have mah mom.. my very loving, supportive, strict mom…but when im growing up.. un n ung time na im looking for a dad…naiiyak n lang ako pag na iisip ko un.. hai..

but even my dad is not here na, i know that he is still here.. in my HEA RT.. im a daddy’’s girl.. we are a daddy’s boi/girl.. we are so lucky that we have a parents like my mom and dad.. hehehe… i miss him so much!

to my DAD.. i love you so much!! even you know that sometimes i am a bad girl.. i love you dad..dont wori i’ll take care of mom..

Happy fathers day!!! regards to ninong dan, lolo genio and lolo ciso.. please tell them that we miss them so much!

June 20,09…. 8pm. after work….

wala lang… napagtripan namin ni dovey na magpunta sa metrowalk cause mah very special frend and very close to mah HEART(hehehe) is going to perform..however… hindi na nmin naabutan kasi naman… ang gara ng work namin eh..hehehehe.. pero ok lang.. hmm.. aun, we went there and go straight at metrowalk’s parking lot.. WTF! all emos!! guys whoi are wearing BLACK!hahaha.. i want to go inside the barricades pero  dovey dont want to go baka daw magka stampede..well, come to think of it, puro mga hindi trusted mga faces ng mga tao dun..hehehe…

tapos aun.. we went to elbow room and meet mah very special frend who owns the cutest smile in the world..KENNETH..and then..ano pa ba ang nangyari??haha/. aun kenneth left for a while to meet his frends.. and then naglibot ulit kami..heheh.. but dovey has to go na cause she has work pa..

tapos aun.. kenneth and i meet again at decades bar, and met lala (proud to be a bitch but brainy);johan (a true blood activist);janine (lala’s best pal) and phil ( the bf)…hehe..well, i enjoy thier company and learned some dance move with lala..lala is cool..very confident..hehhee.. well we dance, drink and there! wala na..we have to go home..

hmmm……………. that’s all….. i want to be with them again.. oops!! bfore i forgot..kuya moy also drops by at decades to see us however he has to go since may inuman blues cia sa boni..hehehe..

okidoks!! i have to go and start reading mah novel FALLEN ANGEL..

i met this frend on a place where no one cud find such a wonderful connection. i dont know how we got hooked at each other i dont know how and i dont know why.. i dont want to create a story cause i know i will get hurt again.

im happy, after what

happen with me, GOD give

me a new frend where i

know i can keep.

Listening to Ken-ken’s music…tears from Heaven..

i love it. he has a nice voice and he is one of the few people who has a very cute, attractive and sweet smile. his smile is genuine.. he is very sweet to have a friend like him. well, im so lucky that GOD made a connection with this wonderful guy. I dont want to make a story. I love having a conversation with him. he is nice. he is kalog. well thank you so much for letting me listen to ur music. i really appreciate it. thank you so much!!!

hai!! bkit kaya may mga tao na makapal ang face.. bkit kaya?! abah!!

well i got pissed off when mah frends told me that this fucking guy went to his bday.. well,well! HE REALLY HAVE A THICK FACE?!! fucking shit cia!! well yan ang name nia sa Cp ko… actually its ok if we know that we have gap but as what he and his gf said, TINAKWIL NA NIA KAMI?! how come andun cia>! huh?! great!! he must be thankful that i am not there! GOD BLESS to him! hahha.. Dahil kung andun ako naiks baka umuwi cia ng hindi oras.. Alam kaya ng gf nia n pumunta cia sa mga dati niang frends o nagsinungaling na namn cia?! well?well? kaasar!! well ang galing kasi niang mag sinungaling.. sabihin b namn n ninakaw ang amplifier???duh?! is he a shit?! or what?! eh kung nanakawin un dapt pati acoustic guitar nia and ung fx nia worth 4200.. shit?! oo 4200 ung fx.. YAMAN KO NOH?! kaya nga tinake advantage nga daw ako according to her gf?! hAIST! [naku kung hindi lang sa isang taong mahalaga sakin baka sumugod na ko ng SANTOLAN..hmp!!!

HApi Bday to me! hapy Bday to me! hapy bday hapy bday hapy bday to me!!! hahahaha…yep 23 na ko! shucks! tanda ko na! hehe but still, i feel young!.. no problems, no stress..

23 years ago, i was a little girl who wants to be a princess.. cause i believe that PRINCE CHARMING are true.. well, blame CHristian andErsen and the GRimms Brothers..hehehhe.. yep. i believe in fairy tales, fairies, elves, witches, dragons, everything that a kid will have their full attention listening to our dearly mother before going to sleep.. hehehe…

wow..23.. but still SAME JAMAICA.. Same girl u met way back 23 years ago. If ever there is changes but its for the better.. hehehe..

well, i cannot say anything.. im just happy that even though im getting old but still my heart is still young and happy and satisfied with the people im going with and with my family who are there for me…

What Is Friendship?Friendship is an in-depth, relaxed relationship!
Friends relate.

Being able to trust and relax with your friend is a big part                                                 of      friendship.

-True??!Yes it is!! Friendship is not counted how long.. how many.. its a matter of how you understand each other. compatibility. and how you respect each other.

-true friends dont hide thier anger. yes. cause if your true to yourself, you dont have hesitation to show ur feelings when ur mad.

- Friendship?? tinatakwil?? wow!! bago un!! hehehehe.. some people will let things go. yep! i know some.. why?? They are not true to thierselves. their own enemy.. thier self. they dont want to be corrected which is need to be corrected. well, i am part of it. tinakwil ako?! hahahah.. i tell this engot thing with my bestfriend for 22 years. hahaha.. wala lang.. natawa lang.. she said that ” GRABE! tinatakwil k n pala ngaun! eh engot pala un eh!! ” wahaha.. SAbi ko na lang.. “yaan mo na, ayaw kasi niang naririnig ang totoo.” heheeh.. well, im happy he find new friends. that’s gud. at least he will no longer be sad. hehehe..

gudluck!

every message is very important.. you want to treasure every word that he sends to you.. i want to treasure everything…

“nun una wala pero nung tumagal syempre. ung mga gnawa ntin papayag ba ako nun qng wala tlaga” - 05-05-09

“ah kea pala.. magslip ne me love u” - 04-16-09

“basta nagcohmpose ako.sana magustuhan nyo.ipanglalaban q sa battle 2. maganda aman eh!” 04-15-09

hai..madami pa..yaw ko lang burahin..haist.. ang hirap tlaga. i miss the time we call each other mami and dadi..

right now. im crying.. i cant help mah tears pouring down mah eyes. i know its already late.. late to realize wat will be the outcome.. masakit eh.. lam ko namn n darating din sa puntong kelangan mamili..cia ang pinili eh.. la namn akong magagawa.. hindi ako DIOS para ipilit ang puso nia sakin.. kahit DIOS man ako ayaw ko rin. hindi mauutusan ang puso..

ngaun.. sa mga oras na to.. nase2rmunan ako.. inaaako ang lahat ng masasakit n salita ng aking pamilya.. MAsama ba ako?? nagmahal lang namn ako…

if ever man.. ayaw ko ng mabuhay.. Sana maging masaya n cia…